Sundays are a little difficult for me. Don't get me wrong, it is still my favorite day of the week but I look at them a little differently now. I still feel like it is a day for me to recharge and get energized (even though often times it sucks the energy right out of me). I like that I have very little "extras" planned on the Sabbath Day, just church and family time. I sometime struggle with feeling my spirit renewed on Sunday's. My kids are the most amazing and wonderful part of my life (besides Ron of course) but that doesn't mean they make my life very easy. LOL Not sure exactly how to say this but I come home plenty of days after church feeling exhausted, with a throbbing headache, and just a hot mess. I remember when I was pregnant with April one particularly exhausting Sunday in the foyer after church one of Mason's primary teachers came up and talked to me. I honestly have no idea what she said I completely blacked out for a moment and almost passed out. I'm not trying to be dramatic but the struggle is real sometimes. Ron is in the bishopric and I KNOW that has blessed our family immensely so I wouldn't change that. For now the "morning person" that I am is trying to enjoy 1pm church. Soon we will have 9am church and I'm sure I will have new struggles with that. I'm so very thankful for my struggles and my challenges. One of my single friends reminded me the other day in a text that I'm "living the dream". I know I am and I thank Heavenly Father daily for my dream life and family. Because of Ron's meeting schedule and our church time he is able to come home for a few mins before church and help with the craziness of pre-church chaos. I'm so grateful for that. 9am church will not be so luxurious.
Sunday's with April are actually a little less stressful. I know how adorable April is but it's nice to see and feel that love from others towards her. I'm her mother, I HAVE to feel that way. There have been a few Sundays lately where I haven't even held April for more than 20 mins in the 3 hour time block. When I walk into church I'm immediately ambushed by young women begging and wanting to hold her. One family in particular has taken her quite a few sacrament meetings the entire hour! Ron usually comes and gets her the 2nd hour of church and when I'm teaching primary if Ron doesn't have her the last hour my team teacher holds her or other women in the ward ask for her. I've even had young women come up and ask me after church if they can have April the following Sunday during Sacrament meeting. Too cute! I think I need to get a sign up sheet, April has a waiting list. I definitely feel the love from those in my ward wanting to help me and doting on my perfect baby. I'm not sure how long this will last but I'll take it. Hopefully it last until she is like 4 years old. I can dream right? Something tells me the novelty will wear off when she isn't so sweet and a little feisty in church. Time will tell.
When my kids misbehave during church I have them "practice" being reverent at home.
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