Aprils First Day of Preschool

Today was the last time I will experience the "first day of Preschool" with my kids. I know that sounds weird let me explain. I had a conversation once with a close friend about the struggles of motherhood. We were both venting about lack of sleep, struggles with teaching and trying to be patient. She said something to me that I have never forgotten. She said something along the lines of "I try to think of each moment as a potential 'last' moment in my experience as motherhood." For example when my daughter comes into my room at 2am and climbs in bed with me and I resume my sleepless night on the edge of the bed because she sleeps horizontal... positive thoughts could be "this might be the last time Callie asks for comfort and snuggles" Not sure if that makes sense but in life sometimes we don't always know when the "last" moments will be. We don't know when we will lose a close loved one, the last time my 10 year old son will give me a hug in public, the last time they will ask for help with tying shoes, not to be dramatic but I didn't know the last time Mason would have 2 functioning eyes. My really long point is today was one of those known "last days". I kept it together and was really proud of myself UNTIL she got in the car AFTER her first day of preschool. She started talking about all the friends she made, the things she did and the birthday celebration they had for one of the preschoolers. Listening to her talk I could feel the tears rushing in (thank goodness for sunglasses Haha). When I asked what her friends names were she replied "ummm I 'dagot (forgot) I sink (think) her name was 'Uh-nelope'." I hope she never stops pronouncing words like that. In her sweet little mouse voice it's my favorite. I guess I just got all teary thinking about her experiencing things with out me. She's always been my little buddy. Her sweet little voice constantly telling me time after time that I'm her best friend. The adorable little hand that is always willing to clasp mine. The little cutie that makes me stop and literally smell the roses. My shopping companion that stops the shopping cart abruptly EVERY time we come across something pink. She has my heart and it's a little sad to think about things she will now experience with out me.